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Word Count: 738

It felt like I wrote so many more words than that. Honestly, I thought I wrote a million or something. So I'm kind of confused by that number, but pleased with the progress. I made some huge leaps in my projects yesterday and I anticipate more of them today/this week.

Word Count: 194.

Another small day, but I loved what I wrote, and that is a HUGE victory sometimes. I like the words I'm putting out, and I like the story and where it's going. Once I get back into the swing of feeling like myself, I have a feeling the words will just pour out of me and become an unstoppable force.

I'm still looking at my projects as more of a list of tasks rather than a word count goal. If I think of all the words I need to "catch up", I'm going to have a meltdown. You know?

Currently, I'm writing this at the library and while I haven't written words yet, I feel very...in tune with my thoughts. I wrote a personal blog entry before writing out this one, and I came to a lot of interesting conclusions.

I'm trying to shove myself into a box. It's a box that has been presented to me by the people in my life. They expect me to fit in the box and to do things a specific way. It's not working, because I do not feel like myself in the box. I'm not sure if MY box is a different material, or a different shape, or a different size, but whatever it is, it isn't the one I'm currently trying to reside in.

But this revelation has been good for me in that it'll bring back the spark in my creativity that has been missing for so long. The spark that made me love what I do. I need to keep the flame fanned and going. When I'm not creating, I'm a miserable troll. It's my lifeblood.

I ended up taking a four hour nap today if that says anything about how I'm feeling. I'm not sure if I'm fighting off stress or sickness or a combination of both. After sleeping, I feel improved, but also a little off. Time to do some work and some soul searching, though.

Still at 0 words for the day.

I wrote a few paragraphs yesterday. Still feel funky. I think I found the solution!

I did no writing yesterday too. The weekend was busy, so I decided to just take it easy and have an early bed time. My goals are simple for the time being, so it's not a big deal. Catching up should be easy!

Word count: 2604

I don't have anything to share for today beyond that.

Word count: 3524

Yesterday was a big day. Today, it's late and I'm finally getting started. We'll see how much I can get done before bed. I have a few goals, and not achieving them tonight will set me behind, but I'm not going to let it bring me down. I have hope that I will crush my goals still.

We'll see if I have more to say tomorrow. I'm tired, and I still have things to do.

Still sick. I'm at the point where the frustration is really starting to get to me. Nothing feels satisfying at this point. Basically, I'm bored, and unable to do much of anything about it because all of the things I'd like to be doing, I still can't quite do. This is usually the final stage of sickness which means tomorrow I should be so much better and back at the world with a passion.

I used my grumps to fuel me and I wrote 3753 words.

Maybe my grumps can fuel me again today to have another amazingly productive day. I feel pretty sick, though too, so maybe not.

We'll see!

I'm very mentally beat. Working is going to be super hard to do today, but I'm determined to give it my best shot.

First, I'm going to take a nice walk to get my creative juices flowing. Walks always help me to get my head in the game. They're also my quiet space when the rest of the world is chaotic. I'm excited to be feeling better enough to walk again, though I'm not at 100%. This afternoon is going to be my test for that.

I think once I feel 100% like myself again, I can also have a better mentality toward working. When I don't feel like me, I don't do as much of anything.