S1: Day 15 (15)
Sep. 15th, 2019 08:43 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
cloudsriserWord count for the day was 267.
Yesterday was a busy day in a lot of ways. There was a party, and classes, and getting the kids ready for their own adventures.
Today, I'll be working all day and trying to relax and unwind from the party. I absolutely loved seeing all of my friends as we celebrated my husband's birthday, but it also made me quite exhausted. Always the problem with me and social gatherings. I'm not sure many understand how incredibly tired this sort of thing is for me and how it can set me back in energy levels for days. It's one of the reason I'm always so hesitant to make plans with people at random. Coupled with stress, it gets even more complicated.
That's introversion. Tests have shown than I'm about 95% more introverted than the rest of the planet. Tests have also shown that of people who are like me, I'm in the 20% who are able to function appropriately in regular society. Blend in.
I don't think a lot of people understand introversion, not even introverts. A lot of people don't realize they're introverted for example, or if they do, what that even means. I hear a lot of "I don't like people, so I'm introverted" and that's not accurate either. Introversion is not a hatred for people or socializing. It's socializing with a purpose, and it's understanding that for every piece of time spent socializing, that at least twice as long will need to be spent alone to recharge that energy expended during the socializing. When introverts don't socialize with a purpose, they get even more spent in energy. I'm sure I could make a crazy math equation for this some day.
So when I say I blend in, that means I'm not quite as awkward with small talk, and that I can keep my energy level up during the moment to at least appear "normal". Afterward? I'm a mess.
I do feel best when I can spend a good solid amount of time in my own world. No text messages, no phone calls, no in person interaction. Nothing. I'd turn off my internet if I didn't need it so badly to get work done. A good day of just that? Brings me back to nearly full energy and the more of my projects I get done, the more energy I have as well which means I feel more inclined to go out and spend the energy on time with others. That could also be an equation I think.
What does all of this have to do with writing?
I spent a lot of energy last night, so the dream is that I can replenish it by writing today. Do not be surprised if my numbers are huge. The hope is to NOT nap in my efforts to replenish. Because while napping might make my body feel better to a point, it won't rejuvenate my mind and that is the part that needs it the most.
Yesterday was a busy day in a lot of ways. There was a party, and classes, and getting the kids ready for their own adventures.
Today, I'll be working all day and trying to relax and unwind from the party. I absolutely loved seeing all of my friends as we celebrated my husband's birthday, but it also made me quite exhausted. Always the problem with me and social gatherings. I'm not sure many understand how incredibly tired this sort of thing is for me and how it can set me back in energy levels for days. It's one of the reason I'm always so hesitant to make plans with people at random. Coupled with stress, it gets even more complicated.
That's introversion. Tests have shown than I'm about 95% more introverted than the rest of the planet. Tests have also shown that of people who are like me, I'm in the 20% who are able to function appropriately in regular society. Blend in.
I don't think a lot of people understand introversion, not even introverts. A lot of people don't realize they're introverted for example, or if they do, what that even means. I hear a lot of "I don't like people, so I'm introverted" and that's not accurate either. Introversion is not a hatred for people or socializing. It's socializing with a purpose, and it's understanding that for every piece of time spent socializing, that at least twice as long will need to be spent alone to recharge that energy expended during the socializing. When introverts don't socialize with a purpose, they get even more spent in energy. I'm sure I could make a crazy math equation for this some day.
So when I say I blend in, that means I'm not quite as awkward with small talk, and that I can keep my energy level up during the moment to at least appear "normal". Afterward? I'm a mess.
I do feel best when I can spend a good solid amount of time in my own world. No text messages, no phone calls, no in person interaction. Nothing. I'd turn off my internet if I didn't need it so badly to get work done. A good day of just that? Brings me back to nearly full energy and the more of my projects I get done, the more energy I have as well which means I feel more inclined to go out and spend the energy on time with others. That could also be an equation I think.
What does all of this have to do with writing?
I spent a lot of energy last night, so the dream is that I can replenish it by writing today. Do not be surprised if my numbers are huge. The hope is to NOT nap in my efforts to replenish. Because while napping might make my body feel better to a point, it won't rejuvenate my mind and that is the part that needs it the most.
